<TITLE>05. Par 12-14</TITLE>L-12 Later on, when I became a minister, and I begin to--them visions was more than ever then. Many things that it said. Then my Baptist brethren, they told me, when we met in conferences like this, and I explained it to them. They said to me, "Billy, don't listen to that. That's of the devil. That's the devil trying to get you."
Oh, my, it'd make me shake. I--I was scared. I don't want nothing to do with the devil. So one night--or one afternoon, I just coming in from work. I was going around the house a taking off my belt, gun belt, so--so I could wash my hands for my lunch. I was going back to turn some fish loose for--for the conservation. Wife had dinner ready, and as I started around the house, all of a sudden, here that came again. And I said to my wife, "Go, call the office, and tell them that I will not be working this afternoon, or I won't--I don't know when I'll work again." I said, "Honey, I can't go through life like this. I'm a slave. If them brethren are right... If those brethren are right, the ministers, the devil is trying to take my life. And I'm a minister, pastor of this Tabernacle, and then the devil is after me. I've got to get rid of it. And I will never preach again or neither will I ever go to the pulpit until I can get rid of that."

L-13 So I went to a little cabin, where I fish, way in the wilderness, and I prayed all afternoon. Reading this same Bible... And I'd went to... When it got dark... Many times, I'd go there and pray for days at a time. And I'd got down on my knees when it gotten dark, and I couldn't read no more, because the little cabin's way back in the mountains. Used to be a trapper's cabin, you know, furs things.
Then when I prayed... I prayed quite a long time till about two o'clock in the night. And I'd sit down in a chair, something like this. And I had my head down, and I felt real strange. And I--was--face was real from crying, and I raised up my hands; I said, "Oh Lord, never let that happen again. I love You. Jesus is my Saviour. I love Him. Let no evil can take be over." I said, "How can I help it, Lord. It'll take Your power to take it away from me. I want to have nothing to do with the devil. I love Jesus, and Him I want to serve."
Just then, a Light come on the floor. I looked at the Light. It begin to spread out, and I looked up above, and here was this Light milling around. Just about this big around, kind of a yellowish green, emerald, and it was like the...?... It growed wider and wider. I heard Someone walking; coming up from my side, to my right side, came a Man walking. He had on a white garment, bare-footed, kind of dark complected, hair down long, huge Man, great big arms, folded like this. And he started walking to me. I was so scared, I--I was biting my finger, biting my finger. I thought I had went to sleep.

L-14 Now, you might think that would make you laugh, but you stand in that place once, you'd feel the same way. That was not a vision. Surely, I know what a vision is. This was no vision. The Man was there, just the same as I'm here. And He was looking at me. Now, couldn't--didn't back all my church...?... Looking back, and He looked right down at me, and He said, "Do not fear." And as soon he said that, I knew it was the same Voice that had spoke to me since I was a little boy. I never seen Him before, but it was His Voice. It was deep, and He said, "Do not fear, I have been sent from God to tell you that you're peculiar birth and life..."
No one understood me. My ministerial brothers didn't understand me. My father and mother didn't understand me. My girlfriends, my boyfriends... They don't yet. Neither do I understand myself. I can't make it out. I don't want to be different. I want to be like someone else. But you can only be what God makes you. He's the Potter; we're the clay.


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